So, looks like everything is going smoothly for the Lolita's. I'm already looking for pieces to make my outfit. Now I just have to worry about the wig and .... errr well everything else.
Anyway, other than that, life seems good. I'm happy that I finally have weekends to myself now, which means I can go to church on Sunday. (no one else would really get exciting about that, but I've been wanting to go to church for so long. I like church, I like praying, and praising, and all of it. Okay and don't think I'm the type that just goes to church and calls them self a Christian; no, my life is changing and so are my horrible habits. Maybe I'm the only one that noticed, also than a few others, but whatever.) I'm just excited to know more and grow more spiritually. I guess no one needed or wanted to know that, but for anyone that cares....
Also, I do feel bad. I'm thinking some people may be getting the wrong tone of when I speak. I never mean to seem catty or arrogant -which I know I can come off as. I'm sorry if I have done anything to offend, but really I'm intentionally trying to make you upset or irritated. I know I have my flaws, and yes when they get pointed out -it sucks, but it'll help me grow if I learn to deal with them. I know I can get easily frustrated, that I am working on. It's hard for me to think clearly when I get frustrated, my mind gets cloudy and I say things I don't mean. Yes, later I do say I'm sorry, but sometimes it's just not good enough. I'm working on trying to force myself either away from a frustrating -walk off and cool down- or make myself have someone beside me that will help me calm down.
Another thing, like all humans, I hate to admit I am wrong. But later, after I think it out, I will kick my pride aside. I am prideful, as everyone else is, but I have to learn to push my pride aside if I want to get anywhere. Just because all people have pride and hate to admit things, doesn't mean I can use that as an excuse. So, I am sorry if I never admitted I was wrong, but maybe we should try to calm down and speak each point of view without getting irritated or interrupting the other.
Oh but please, please! never talk over me. It is so rude to talk over someone, just let them finish speaking. I have done it before, and I still kick myself for it.
I have more flaws, but addressing them all right now would be strange. Anyway, I guess I'll talk later.

p.s.~ I am still beating myself up for upsetting Shu at her party. Please forgive me T___T I should have had the sense enough to stay behind or turn around sooner. I mean yeah sure I thought you were still talking to Kristi, but that was no excuse. Sorry Love, I'll make you something special, I promise. (I keep my promises) Love you very much <3